Creation

Just so you know, I love reading my kids blogs. They talk about things there that they don't always say in person. It is another way of seeing and enjoying the wonderful people that they are. I wish they'd blog more often. I don't know if they feel that way about my blogs, but it makes me realize that I should post more often.

Where to start? I realized lately that I have been doing a great job of "leaning on the arm of flesh." I think I can accomplish all of the impossible tasks in my life if I just work hard enough. This summer has shown me that I can't, even when I have time off work. So, long story short, I've realized that I need to rely on the Lord, make my prayers more meaningful, and attend the temple more often.

As I ponder the "3 pillars of eternity" as coined by Bruce R. McConkie, I have questions. They are the creation, the fall, and the atonement. I would never say that I totally understand the fall and the atonement, because I don't, but I really do get why they are super important. It's the creation that I don't get. Now I'm not saying I don't understand what happened, because I think I do. I know that God literally created this earth, with Jesus Christ working under the authority of the Father. I think I get the whole idea of a spiritual creation before a physical creation. I understand about return and report. But there must be something huge I'm missing, because (can I say this here?) even though they've changed (nothing significant) and shortened the temple films and ceremony, we spend a good deal of time learning about the creation. So as things are shortened and refined, that means a larger portion of the whole thing is about the creation. Why? I don't understand. What am I supposed to learn about the creation that I'm obviously not getting. So if anybody get this would you please explain it to me? I'm missing something here and it looks like it might be important.

Other than that, life is its continual, hectic, crazy, busy pace. School started last week, and I might actually be ready by the end of next week for the students to come back. The computer lab is still not functioning, I don't have music for my choirs, and my office looks like it was hit by a tornado. The web site isn't up because I haven't been able to get Stephanie all of the information. College classes started and I have homework that I couldn't get off the internet until late Saturday night. I need to start graphing and memorizing and practicing the music I will be doing for conducting lessons and my recital and I haven't. Etc., etc., etc. My "to do" list is out of control and there doesn't seem to be any hope of it getting better in the near future. At least I'm not bored!

So, if I'm not doing all that I should be for you, please understand that I'm swimming in very deep water right now. Having turned to the Lord more, I'm doing better, but there are simply more things to do than there are hours in a day. I learned last year, that if I don't get enough sleep I will get sick, so I have to protect my health or come to a complete stop. I have difficulty prioritizing tasks. I want to do the ones that I can get done and check off the list and they are rarely the most important ones. So....please know that I love you all. I'm doing my best, even though I know it isn't good enough. And things will get better when I finish this stinking master's degree!